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Heart Surgery (original poetry)

I don’t write poetry often, but the other day something kept rattling around in my brain that I had to write out. It started as a feeling and some images in my animation program, but became words as I just put my fingers on the keyboard. So, here is the ‘poem’ I wrote, as well as the video version of it below. (It’s appropriate for all ages)


Heart Surgery

You’re always there.

Your eyes watch me and I feel you; hands not unlike breath on my skin.

I’ve got goosebumps in my soul — I want to sing.

Tears strangle my voice in the stead of a melody — claws grasp my heart with careful fragility.

I trust you.

With careful precision, you force life back into my lungs.

Desire for the veil was never so sweet as your face — the glowing red my sign in the dark.

Passion pulls me away.

My life is no longer mine but yours — your will to fan the flames stoking my soul’s perseverance.

No.

I will not go today.

(Closed captions available if you can’t understand some of the words)

© 2018 Shane Blackheart

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The End of an Era

I can’t believe it’s over tomorrow.

After starting Plotagon in February of 2015, all of my accomplishments there will be gone. I was a moderator of the site and continue to be a beta tester for the program, and I made many tutorials on how to use it, how to write better stories and characters with it, and I generally tried my best to be supportive of others and, within the last month or so, have tried my best to do my part in keeping the community together and inspired along with others. Sadly, my Choose Your Own Adventure series with the community had to end. I’d started it to get the community involved in a series where they told the story and not me, which was a huge last bit of inspiration.

I’ll admit, this really hit at a time when I already had a lot going on in my life that hasn’t been good, so this loss is something I haven’t really been handling well. I can paste on a smile and try to have a bright outlook for the future, but with what I know and have experienced, it’s hard. I feel like everything I’ve accomplished there – my followers, my staff picks, my featured status – will mean nothing now as it will be erased from the internet, save for the wonderful blog entries about us that the Plotagon Team put together. Now, all I have is my Youtube channel that is mostly quiet, this blog that is unknown and nothing to the internet, and a Facebook page that is equally as quiet.

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I feel I won’t ever get the audience I had on Plotagon, or that kind of engagement and encouragement, again.

My Youtube channel was never meant for younger eyes, so Plotagon has, unfortunately, attracted a lot of kids to subscribe to my channel now where I had meant to keep the two separate, as my Plotagon profile was the sole source to find my plots (what the community calls videos made with Plotagon). This has put me in a very awkward situation since I don’t have the energy to maintain two channels, and people who subbed to me before this didn’t care for the Plotagon films I made. Maybe this will change in the near future, although Youtube doesn’t like duplicate uploads so this is unlikely.

It just hurts. The place that made the creator in me come so far, and made me who I am today, is gone. It gave me the confidence to speak to a large group of people in voice and then on camera, and I found my love and talent for voice acting. It helped me finish stories where I otherwise couldn’t. I spent a month back in 2016 between illnesses writing, voice recording, and editing an entire film that was a little over an hour long.

It helped me progress to even better quality in my video editing by giving me new challenges there. Most importantly though, I met so many cool people that I otherwise wouldn’t have. I hope we all stick together. I at least want to be able to keep my Plotagon friends around so we can continue to support each other no matter where our creativity takes us.

You guys are super important. Thank you for giving me a chance. Muriel, Maxfield, Klas, Maria, Quincy, Helen, Anthony, Arnaud, Martin, Rebecca, Kat, Lukesters, Lance, Georgia, John, Jon, Gary, Reid, Stephen, Doodius, and anyone else from Plotagon who I may have missed, as well as anyone who has ever supported me on the platform, including all of my followers. The community may be over, but the program still exists and I hope we all keep creating with the software and sharing as before. We might be scattered across the internet now, but we’ll find ways to stay together.

Stay inspired.

What If…?

Although I am not feeling so great today, I still wanted to post something a bit more positive since a lot of my entries have been dark. So, to mix up the monotony, I wanted to share a video I made solely in Plotagon itself without any outside editing. I am a beta tester for the program, and I was able to get my hands on a version that is still under heavy testing, but I’ve produced some amazing things with it! Hopefully, these new features will be available to all, but not until the bugs are worked out properly.

I made this video during a particularly bad night, as they have been lately. I was in a lot of pain from a medication that my body just didn’t like, but I wouldn’t let it stop me from creating this bit of comedy that I’m still pretty proud of. So without further commentary, here is the video, voiced by myself, Byleth, and Lestan:

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